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I neither Like nor Want to Talk About Me

2016-01-30 in Uncategorized

Over the past couple days, I have been reading more or less random blog posts… — I will get to why in a moment, but I first want to remark and point out very pointedly that I really don’t like talking about me, myself, my personal feelings, etc. I don’t consider myself to be very important in the “greater scheme” of things. I find it awkward and even a little painful to watch people write, behave, act or whatever like they are the center of the world … like everyone is just waiting to find out how they feel about something. I find that sort of information boring and disingenuous (I think that’s the word I want, but I’m really not sure).

OK, so why am I writing this here and now? Thanks for asking!! 😀

Try This at HomeImitate a spiritual master [05:30-13:30]. My spiritual master is St. Therese of Lisieux, and her spiritual memoir (if you’re curious) is Story of a Soul. I was surprised to hear the person that Elizabeth picked as her spiritual master! Hint: that person’s autobiography is called Audition. (Sorry, I promised to post a photo of my shrine to St. Therese, but I’m in Australia now, and I forgot to take the picture before I left town.)

The quote above is from a podacst hosted by Gretchen Rubin together with her sister Elizabeth Craft, which I have recently discovered and enjoy very much (even though it is supported by advertising 😉 ). I enjoyed the idea which they suggest to “try this at home” in this episode (#16), and so I want to share my ideas about this here. I will call my spiritual Master X, because I don’t want to divulge their identity here without their consent. I want to share my own ideas, but I don’t want to put this person in an “awkward” position.

The way I want to imitate their behavior is that I want to try to enjoy other people for how they are different than I am.

X is also a very special person for being humble — particularly in not claiming to be right. The humility of not being right is also something I aspire to — but it is also something I feel I am very far away from (I admire it more than I practise it — I am more prone to behaving like a “know-it-all”, an issue also discussed in Episode 20 of Gretchen + Elizabeth’s podcast [12:15-14:30]).

Here are some notes I’ve jotted down about my aspirations and shortcomings to be more humble and to cherish the way other people are different:

  • From early youth, I have been very fascinated with science, mathematical proofs, logic, etc.
  • Later, I also became fascinated with subjectivity, perspective, relativity, etc.
  • This is perhaps most apparent in my admiration of Ludwig Wittgensteins’s work — but Wittgenstein is *anything but* my spiritual master, because he seemed to be so fixated on his own beliefs, absolute truth, etc.
  • My spiritual master, instead, revels in wonder and amazement at how other people behave, think, live, etc. (i.e., differently)
  • In contrast, I am often frustrated when people seem illiterate, do not understand how science works, etc.

Well, so this is why I have been trying to read what other people write … in a sort of “maybe I should just pretend like other people are indeed literate” manner … and I have become increasingly disgusted with the way people seem to be focused on themselves. 😐

I don’t want to end on such a sour note. So I will now link to a little story about some other people who also inspire me — please go ahead and check out: “Opportunity makers with + for others — doing something smarter together for the greater good“. 🙂

 

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